Tuesday, June 30, 2009

12 weeks to go, 28 down (almost) :)

So today I decided to give my Mommy a break. I, Jeremy, have decided to finally speak to the world and introduce myself.


My name is Jeremy Lee Melvin. I am the first child of Richard Lee Melvin, Jr. (that's my Daddy) and Tasha Denise Melvin (that's my Mommy). My other Momma is Shanika Revéne Rogers (only Mommy can call her NeNe, but that's my AuntMa). My sister, if you can call a dog that, is Meeko. My Mommy says that she is my sister, so I guess she is. Seems kind of weird, we look nothing alike.


Well I am 28 weeks old today. Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me. I guess I partied so much the last few days in my Mommy's belly I am doing a lot of resting today. Though I am occasionally kicking her every now and again. She always comments when I do that, especially when I do it a lot. She always ends by saying, I love you so much- even though you like to hurt me. I don't think I am hurting her, I am just telling her I am okay in here and I love her too.


Daddy is really excited because he says I can now distinguish voices. Not quite sure what that means, but I think it means I can tell who's talking to me. Well duh! I know when Mommy is saying the alphabet with me each morning and Daddy kisses me and says, "Hey Jeremy, it's Daddy". What do they think, I'm stupid or something?! Hey that's Mommy's favorite word, so I figure it's okay for me to say too. She always says she needs to find a better word, before I am born. Too late, I'm already saying it.


I enjoy reciting the Lord's prayer with Mommy each morning and listening to Daddy and Meeko playing each night. My sister's feisty. AuntMa keeps calling me JuJuBee, but I like Jerbear much better. Hopefully that won't last too long either. A genius needs a more sophisticated name. That's what Mommy says, whatever that means.


You may be wondering how I know their names so well. Well each morning Mommy spells my name first, then Daddy's, then her name, and Meeko's name. I like that a lot. She just started reading me some other books too. I don't think she likes them that much though. She kept complaining about them to Daddy and her co-workers. I am also listening to classical and gospel music A LOT!


Well, Mommy says it's time to go now. I can't wait to meet you. Mommy and Daddy are super excited to meet me. That's all they tell people these days. But I'm excited too, I think......


Well, until next time. Take care. Jerbear!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Happy 27th Week!

Well, I am a day late, but not to fear we are here. Unfortunately we were stricken with a summer cold that we are now recouping from. Started last Wednesday, I thought it was going away and WAM, back with a venegence on Sunday. So I spent Monday afternoon and ALL day yesterday in bed. I hate bed rest! God is good though, I never had a fever. Yea!!!


It seems when women are sick men lose all common sense, or maybe they never had it. So I husband comes home from work early to "take care of me". Or so he says :)! He immediately brings me some OJ, but that's about it. Breakfast, I was on my own, Lunch, forget about it. Now dinner.. well he did pop a frozen pizza in the oven and take out my salad fixings for me to prepare. Now if you think he is just rude, not really. Because not only did my sister go through something similar yesterday as well (she is also sick), but my best friend did when she was sick... and she has an 11th month old baby. Men just don't get it. No sympathy for the sick pregnant wife I guess. Of course I made him feel guilty and reflect on is inconsistencies.


But we are getting better now. My head no longer feels as if it's floating in the air, about to burst. Baby J is doing well. I just learned that he could be hiccuping in my belly. Hmmm... I am not quite sure how this feels, but I'm almost certain he's hiccuped plenty of times and silly me chalked it up to him moving around. He's definitely a lot more active than ever before. Good thing, sometimes uncomfortable. Yea, uncomfortable.... that's a "nice" word for it.


So I recently told NeNe that I am going through this phase where I feel like I am harming him in some way and am scared out of my mind. She thinks I'm crazy. It's the reason I refuse to take meds while I am sick and I question everything I eat. If only I could stop eating those darn McDonald fries. But I am always second-guessing and questioning myself about the level of care I am providing for him. It seems my hubby dear has no concerns in this department, but I sure do. This pregnancy is bringing out so many crazy thoughts and emotions. I wonder what September will bring.


Well, Jerbear is now 27 weeks old .... Happy Pre-Birthday Baby J.


Until next week....

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Where is my brain?!


For those of you who have ever been pregnant, you have probably asked this question. I am to a point now where all I do is apologize or yelp in frustration at my forgetfulness. It really is becoming a problem. The reason I put the question in the subject line is because I keep forgetting how many weeks we are OR what month we are now in. Shame, I was never one to remember dates but really, forgetting when Jeremy's due date is is a bit much don't ya think?!

I have always had a photographic memory. I have never been great with dates or names but have been pretty okay .... that is up until now. Now I can barely remember if I have met someone. What's with this brain thing? My parasite should be super smart when he arrives. Hopefully my loss of brain power means his increase. I guess we shall wait and see.

As for updates...
Jeremy is officially 1 lb and 12 oz. YEA!!! He is right on track for his "age". Everything is developing right nicely for my baby boy. It should be, he "eats like his daddy"! I'm telling you, it's a wonder I am not gaining a lot of weight. Every time I turn around he is "hungry" again. I have never been this hungry in all of my life. What gives? Last night I refused to go back downstairs a second time to get something to eat. I just ate the peanuts I keep at my bedside. Can I say how sick of those peanuts I am getting?! Peanuts, crackers, wheat thins, even cookies I am starting to hate. I hate being such a picky eater. Man, if it was true that pregnant women really do have interesting cravings I would be good to go... maybe a pickle with peanut butter like my little sister suggests.

Other updates..... I am fine, only gained a few pounds, but it's better than losing. Everything else is looking good so far. I took my glucose test yesterday. Sometimes, husbands can be the best things in the world... other times... hmmmm. My husband decided to remind me at least five times what time I needed to start drinking the syrup (as I like to call it). Then he stood there and watched me drink it, and had the nerve to say, "make sure you drink it all", like I had a choice. I love him so much. I know so many women do not have this support so I am not complaining, I just love the irony in our roles with this pregnancy. Hopefully all of my tests will come back with great results.

Last thing to note, so Sunday night as I was lying in bed watching TV, Jeremy was doing the strangest things. I can hardly describe it. It was not kicking or punching it was SO much more. I had to call my sister and hubby because I said I can actually feel his entire body moving inside me. How weird and awesome at the same time. Hmmmmm I wonder how Kate Gosslin (Jon & Kate Plus 8) must have felt with 6 little bodies moving inside her. So weird and neat. It's an experience I will always remember.

Well until next time!

Monday, June 8, 2009

25 weeks down, 15 to go


Well we are almost 25 weeks in a few hours. How exciting and scary. Jeremy is certainly making his presence known. Now my excitement is full blown. I still cannot believe I am going to be a mother. Well, (I should say) that I am a mother, he's just making his debut a little later.

This weekend brought new emotions I never thought I would feel. Oddly enough I felt depressed. Mainly because I felt "abandoned". I still wonder where all of this came from, but essentially my darling hubby went to play golf (ugh!), and my NeNe had to work ALL day (double ugh!). Usually I would not care, and actually relish in a weekend alone with no obligations, but not this weekend. To top it off I was irritable and moody as a result. Well all of this led to a fantastic migraine headache I finally got rid of this morning.

I told my sister friend Carolyn about my mood and she said it is perfectly normal. I hate feeling so out of control. This pregnancy is really taking me for a loop. I am sure the reward will far outweigh all of this stuff though.

We've just finished dinner so I am sitting here trying to figure out if I am full or if my stomach just feels like it's stretching to the moon because Jeremy is getting bigger. As you can see from the picture, I am ALL belly. Actually NeNe and Richard say I am losing weight in other places but I refuse to believe them. Their just being mean :)!

Well, we are off to get some studying done for our comprehensive exams. I can't wait until this phase of my life is over. I feel that God has blessed me with Jeremy when He did for so many different reasons. I am just not so sure why yet. I am sure that it all relates to my job, my degree and my relationship with the people related with both...or in general. Very stressful time right now for Jeremy and myself. I am trying to set a good example for him but I don't think I do a good job of it. My faith will see us through this. I just pray through all of this stress God will protect him and continue to keep him 100% healthy.

25 weeks down, 15 to go---- prayerfully!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Wishes to my son...

So today I want to take a detour and talk a little about life... of course relating it back to Jeremy.

For the last few months I have had some difficult people in my life. Of course they were not aware that I considered them difficult people because I never felt right telling them that. You know how that can be. You don't want to tell someone that they are difficult to get along with because they can't be trusted, they lie about EVERYTHING, they are manipulative and way too needy. Well, that's the case here. I also felt that I was not one to judge, I have my own issues and can be a pure pain to be around myself.

Well, as the months ticked on I realized my life was getting out of control, because I was not speaking up. Actually I felt that had I spoken up it would be a detriment to me and possibly my future. Of course Richard and NeNe were doing their best to convince me to speak up, but I felt, in time things would right themselves.

Well now, I realize that I should have been more honest with this one person in particular. Despite the superiority this person has over me, I should have stood my ground and been completely honest. Regardless of the consequences. So in all of this, I wish that my son realizes WHO he is and how is actions affect other people. I hope Jeremy will learn that things typically happen to us as a consequence of how we act. My Mommie use to say all the time: If one person says it, you don't have to believe it, if two people say it, start perking up those ears; but if more than 3 people say the same thing about you .... you better listen because there is some truth there.

I just hope Jeremy never blames others for his place in life. Despite the hell I went through growing up, I had to realize my biological parents could only be blamed until I became responsible for myself and my own actions. What I go through today, is a direct result of who I am and how I act. If I am looked over for a promotion, denied a job, not chosen to be some one's friend, or asked to step down from a position I have to look first within myself to see where fault lies. We must realize the entire world is not out to get us. If we exert positive energy (this means: COMPLETE honesty, not gossiping, helpfulness without expecting it to be returned, and so on) into the world people will be drawn to you automatically.

My one prayer from the day I found out I was pregnant was this: Lord, I pray that I will raise Your son (Jeremy) to truly know You, love You, reverence You, and seek after You with his whole heart. If Jeremy can do this, maybe he will be saved from being a difficult person. Maybe he will have the love of God in him at all times. I know, I have so many faults with my anger and lack of patience that I may not be the one to really teach him the ways of God. But I wish he does not learn the hard way what it means to be a difficult person like I did.... by allowing a difficult person to be a part of his life.

I am not sure how many people follow my blogs privately. But if you are reading this and you think you are a difficult person, please do as I do. PRAY! Only God will deliver you from yourself. At the end of each day you should be able to close your eyes and say... I cannot be called out on the rug for lying to someone, gossiping about someone, manipulating someone, and so on so forth. I love the saying my Mommie use to say all the time: "Do unto others has you will have them do unto you."

Don't get even, don't get angry Just Pray. And please don't pray for revenge, pray for wisdom and discernment for yourself and others. Pray God shows you the way and His will for your life.

As I finish this blog I will do so in prayer:
Dear Heavenly Father, I come to You humbly and in reverence of You. As I await the arrival of Your gift to me, Jeremy, I pray for more of Your wisdom and discernment as it pertains to my life. I pray that the lessons You are so graciously teaching me today, I will fully receive and serve as a blessing to others. I will be salt to the earth and a light in dark places. But most importantly Lord, I pray that as you so diligently and patiently teach me how to walk in Your ways and have a pure and genuine relationship with You, I will do the same with Jeremy. Lord You are the only teacher that this world needs. I thank You for Your presence in my life. I pray for those who are still seeking You and have not quite found You. May Your light shine on them as it has for me. Thank You Lord for Your grace and mercy.
In Jesus name I pray these and all other blessing,
Amen!