Confidence

It is done! (Revelations 21:6)

I am happy to report that I have finally completed my thesis and will be graduating on May 15, 2010. If it were not for God's grace this would not be so. There is not a moment that I will not praise Him for allowing this to be. But even more important is my lesson of confidence, which I am happy to share with my son.

For years I understood that I lacked confidence. Yes, I understood that I was smart because I applied myself to the task at hand, but I was not naturally gifted. I had to study and memorize and study some more to understand concepts. What typically takes one person an hour to understand takes me half a day. I have to perfect everything that comes before me. And still, I lacked confidence. Until now.

I honestly believe I was meant to endure many trials during my last year in graduate school to help me become a better mother. How could I teach my son to be confident in himself if I lacked this characteristic myself?

I allowed certain people to get very close to hindering my graduation due to personal issues within themselves. For a LONG time I thought the problem was me, not them. Were I already confident in myself and my abilities this would have never happened. Instead, I allowed doubt and uncertainty to set in and almost discouraged me to the point I was planning to drop out. But GOD! Isn't God amazing?! Romans 8:28 states: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

(Who can stand in the way of God's will and purpose, not even me!)

How dare I doubt and ignore God's purpose and will? Who am I to do such a thing? I constantly thank God for showing me that no matter what I do, He is still God! I now know the devil is truly out to kill, steal, and destroy me! But God! God is there to build me up. He has already clothed me in His armor. I have nothing to fear. I am CONFIDENT in Him. Here is where my confidence lies. Isn't it amazing?! I am still in awe and praising God right now for being my God.

So, to my son, I pray you will learn that your confidence comes from your personal relationship with God. In Him, nothing can stand against you.